soooo basically monumentour was awesome. we arrived right before paramore went on, but that was okay since we had to wait till after work to leave. paramore was so good, hayley sounded really good, and she is so cute! :) for the most part i knew all their songs so that was good.
fall out boy was also awesome. their stage set up was really cool. they had TVs and lights and FIRE! and it was cool. they played a lot of new songs and a bunch of old ones too so that was good! pete did most of the talking. also, patrick and andy had a drum battle type thing. i didn’t know patrick could play the drums. it only rained a little, which was good. by the end of the concert, my voice was so hoarse from singing so loud. it was well worth going. i’m glad we decided to go at the last minute.
so me and my former roommate went to a bar/restaurant for dinnner. and it was super crowded because a band was playing. but we just ordered a glass of wine at the bar and then chilled at an empty table. and then this random lady asked if she could sit with us and she bought us each a drink and it was pretty cool and the food was good and so was the band and it was an awesome night. i had a lot of fun.
i wonder how much of a coincidence it is that my two best friends from high school are both openly gay now
i don’t really even know why i’m going to this job interview tomorrow. i’m like 90% sure i don’t even want the job already. it’s most likely a temporary thing. it probably only pays like $20,000/year, which really is less than i would like to make. i probably don’t actually have a place to live in buffalo immediately. the list of issues goes on and on. yet i am still waking up mega early tomorrow morning to drive an hour and a half for this interview. i know i am supposed to ask more questions ahead of time to work out all those details ahead of time, but for some reason i just want to go. maybe it’s just because i want to get away, or be independent. i just really wanna move out ugh. or maybe i miss buffalo. this is probably true, since i’ve felt homeless ever since i moved. plus i still talk about it like it’s my city and i live there. i’ll be having a conversation with my mom about whatever and i will be like “we have that too”. by “we” i mean, in buffalo. but i’m not living there anymore. i guess i’m just not used to it yet. i want to go “home” but that place really doesn’t exist. i’ve never really felt like this before but i really hate this “homelessness” feeling and i want it to go away.
maybe it from all the pent up emotion from tfios, not sure, but it is just awful
i like it better when i fall asleep talking to you because then i don’t have to worry about the sadness overwhelming me.